bummer

April first, it’s a palm’s Sunday. I am not a devoted catholic though but i truly respect practices they have,  I have my own faith in my own  crazy little world.

 becoz i am a lazy ass, waking up late on a Sunday wasn’t a big deal for me. I can stay in bed as long as i want, worry free and reluctant to everything hehehe  becoz i am starving and the rays of the sun passes through my window and hits my face, plus a humid temperature makes me wanna go crazy, and the bustles of the inconsiderate tryc drives were a lot of noise floating in the air this really makes me awfully sick, i can’t really stand so i have to get off from my bed and settled on a more relaxing and convenient corner.

Things i’ve done randomly;

1.       Turn on TV and watch my fave show

2.       Eat my brunch and drink juices to quench my thirst.

3.       Settled bills such as monthly rental, electricity and etc.

4.       Turn on my netbook and check if there are new unread messages

5.       Read blogs, and checked updates on FB,twitter and surfed recent yahoo news.

6.       Reviewed my bucket list for tomorrow’s out of town trip.

7.       had a steamy conversation with my gf through ym.

Things i need to be accomplished;

1.       Haircut

2.       Get my altered jeans at the mall

3.       Recheck my baggage

4.       Press my clothes

i live my life in a most comfortable ways a very simple form of living i appreciate and ready to embrace what life has to offer me with less expectations this is not a perfect world but i know i can make the most of it, fill my life with good memories. I am blessed and loved, nothing else matters after all money can’t buy happiness.

Camping

Ilang tulog na lang, Company’s outing na namin, minsan sa isang taon lang ito, haaays Masaya sana ito kung walang ulan.(sigh) this time it would be totally different unlike previous years na naka booked kami sa hotel, cozy rooms, sumptuous foods, alcoholic drinks, nice pools and many other amenities, siguro nga magandang idea at kakaiba at bagong experience na to, not the usual na ginawa na namin, well nakaka sawa nga naman, pero hindi lahat pabor sa ganitong set up, sa dami ng empleyado halos kalahati ang di sumama sa simpleng ayaw dahil incovenient daw ito, wala naman nangyaring pilitan kung sino lang ang may gusto sya ang pagbibigyan, sa tingin ko malaki ang matitipid ng kompanya sa halos kalahati na saved nila, sana nga lang  yong natipid na pera ay gawing bonus sa darating na june (hehehe), pero ako bilang kasama  at sampu sa mga kaibigan ko ay excited na makarating dun umulan man o umaraw wala ng makakapigil pa. Ito po ay isang CAMPING Yes! We are out in the woods for 2 nights and 3 days.

What to expect?

1.       Program for the first night, awarding ceremony for Synergy games winners. Feast and drinking.

2.       A tent will be distributed, four persons per tent i wonder kung kasya kami lahat including our things kapag babae mas madami ang bitbit we will pitch our own tent. Papaubaya ko na sa kanila, not my talent! hehehe

3.       There’s no electricity in the camp site, camping nga kasi, so a bonefire will do.

4.       We will cook our own food, anyway we talked about it already and assigned people to do the dirty works, food preparation, cooking, and washing the dishes.

5.       Common toilet, shower room, OMG! I’m not used to it.

6.       Dead spot, so back to basics.

7.       It’s cold at night, so il bring my jacket to keep me warm.

8.       We are allowed to drink, but never starts a trouble.

9.       For those who want to experience practical shooting, bring your own earmuff, and bullet costs 25 pesos each. This is exciting, i’il prolly try this one.

10.   Zipline never tried this one, i guess it’s a cool ride, i’ll go for this one.

11.   Trekking not my thing!, i might end up lying/sleeping and read good books, or just chicka with girlfriends.

What to bring? (personal’s cheklist)

1.       Blanket, pillow, or sleeping bag

2.       Towels for 3 days

3.       Shirts,jackets,leggings,shorts,undies

4.       Utensils, cookware, stove

5.       Toiletries/comb

6.       Flashlight/lamp

7.       Charger,cp

8.       Camera

9.       Eyeglasses/sun glasses

10.   Ipod/headset

11.   watch

12.   Extra plastic bags for soiled clothes

13.   Cash

Malapit na haaays all are set, i’ll pray n asana hindi masungit ang panahon para ma enjoy naming lahat ang recreational activities na ito, looking forward for good memories, God please keep us safe and sound.

Electrocuted

Gloomy thursday, The group went to market2 the usual venue for our daily hang out during midnoon break, The rain poured down heavily caused by erratic weather (unpredictable as always). Anyway!  nothing can stop the bitches, it became habitual routine to get our asses off from our seats and roam around, We have to shed off an ounce of fats at least (baboy na kasi) see? we have our purpose of doing it despite of the bad weather.

As we crossed the intertwined roads in Global city, while our feet submerged in water and the cold wind blows harder  i was freakin chilling all over, it's so darn cold a very uncomfy feeling of the day, what i hate the most? my foot socks soaked into the dirt and the uncaring bigot drivers splashed us rain water. Hatred!  as we reach the mall i headed directly to the ATM and the girls went on shopping, i was like a bit excited because there's no one standing there, (baka kasi sa ulan, yon pala the machine is unable to dispense cash) uggghhhh! so i searched  for another machine, Finally, i found one, less people. Awesome..while doing my transaction i sensed the friction travels faster on my index finger, I get hurt, but i remained calm i don't want people get noticed of by me,  as i continue with the process,  it seems the current grew stronger and unfortunately produces intense pain. I stepped back. This time i am fully aware of the danger i will not risk my self or any part of my body for the second time, the situation scares me off, i have no idea where's this unstoppable energy originates, i have to abort the transaction and leave the place with empty pockets. Surprisingly, a dear friend who were standing just right behind me rescued me in that awful situation, I absolutely got the amount i needed(what a instant revelation of my sacred PIN but i have no choice) It was a relief though, until i came to realize that i had wet feet (acc. to science water is a good conductor of electricity)I smiled at that thought the answer wasn't obscure anymore. Accidents strike for  no particular reason at any moment and anywhere. I learned that to keep away from possible danger and be a potential victim at the same time, i should be more wary, i can't blame anyone if i can possibly get hurt elsewhere beyond my control.

Thanks God i am ALIVE.

:)

Today is quite different from the previous days i had, So close we can almost taste it!, synergy games were a lot of fun though we are out of luck tonight but then the game indeed was a spectacular. Second in rank wasn’t that bad we have been this far a lot of things to be thankful for, we've been defeated several times the consistency of positive spirits,camaraderie, and the humor we had all through out the season still the same. Thank you all for the good memories.

To my TEAM, This is not the end of our journey, we must work hard and strive more to get to the top!

See you all in the next synergy games prolly with new team mates. Drafting will be on April. I  hope i can make it to the dream team. WISHING!

Separation anxiety

We really have to part ways,

I just can’t make you stay 

The house rules forbid me for keeping you

I have no choice but to let go of you

i love you, the thought of losing you 

is a lot of pain

i will truly miss you

i know that you’re in the hands of a new keeper

A friend that will love you the same way 

Please be kind, a new home is ready for you, 

Little playmate is excited to see you

be good bunny bear :)

All about love

The most distinguishing mark of lasting and creative love is found in the sense of responsibility that goes with it. This is far different from the hit-and-run tactics of those who use other people for a while and then put them aside. It is a world away from those who play at loving others with glowing phrases and a mastery of manipulative arts. It is meant to last and so it imposes a telling discipline of  its own, discipline that flows from a sense of being responsible for the other in season and out. This means that the real lover is committed to the good of the other and not just satisfaction of his own need. its suggests the genuine lover wants the beloved to grow; only the counterfeit lover wants to control the other in all the aspects of life....

Good values

It was funny how my nephew and niece taught me to behave in public in two separate occasions, I was such a silly ass then.. hehehe

We were on a hospital i accompany him to the nearest drugstore to purchase antibiotics, he was so young then so i didn't let him handle the obligation, his mom and dad hospitalized because of  severe infections they got  from "double dead meat"  contaminated by fatal virus, his mom cooked for their usual meal.

While we are heading back to the room the only way to get there is to take the elevator . There are two service elevators one for emergency and the other for the guests. And because i was too tired after a long day at work and the long trip i had, i immediately rush on the emergency elev.

Nephew:  ayoko dyan sumakay

Me: why?

Nephew: that’s for emergency used only, for patients wounded or in any case

Me: ah ganun ba, Napalunok ako (napahiya ako sa kanya)without hesitation, sige doon na lang tayo a isa. Tinuruan ang matanda.

At the mall, we were strolling and window shopping i was with my kuya and his kids, i take care of my niece kasi si kuya bantay dun sa isa, as we are about to enter the shop, i didn’t notice that the line was divided into two (male and female) dumiretso lang ako while alongside with my niece holding her right hand nasa pila kami ng LALAKI, she was surprised nakalusot na kami and suddenly gently pull my hand and whispered (bakit po tayo pumasok sa male? Eh babae po tayo) napahiya ulit ako, i told her made a promise not to do it next time. (pero sa isip ko tomboy kasi tita mo kaya dun pumasok hehehe)

Shame on me! I should have taught them the right thing, but it’s the other way around i was foolish enough to behave badly (i ain't supposed to do that not with the young ones even with elder people).
 i'm in awe and impressed how these kiddos respect the rules, they know what is the diff  between right from wrong and live the life the way it should be, They are blessed with rich values, genuine characters and intelligence.
I’m a proud tita i learned from them. 

ulan

I remember the days when it rains

Were on the couch cuddling

Curled up and hug each other

We enjoy the cold weather

Our silly laughs that lasts longer
and for plain awesomeness that we are together

I love it when you kiss me gently on my forehead
i had shiver fuzz chills

I can’t forget your smile the sweetest in my eyes

You hold me and i feel the warmth of your touch

There’s a fire burning inside of me

I know i am filled with love

I love you like rains pouring on our love nest

The romantic feeling it brings

The joy with no limits

And YOU by my side

I beg! Rainy day ....PLEASE STAY..

Don’t let this happy feeling disappear

my prayer

Thank you God for a great morning

Another gift of life

The wisdoms that kept me going

The sun that still shines through the day

All the elements that i need to keep me alive

The air that I breathe

The food at the table

And the happy atmosphere

The bliss inside of me

The feeling that i am healthy

No bad dreams

Just all happy thoughts

You gave all that I need

Even if i didn’t ask for it

You poured down the blessings on me

You rescued me when i'm in despair

With the angel you sent me i knew that i am safe from danger

You forgive me countless times when i fell short on you

I know you won’t forsake a child like me

Coz i am your greatest creation

And that is why, i am forever grateful

Sets eyes on a real beauty (written by a dear friend)

After graduating elementary, I transferred in another school and i had so many friends because i was "new face" in the campus. A lot were sending me letters and wanted to disclose themselves. One day i was hospitalized  and had an operation. At the age of 13, I had to go through six sessions of chemotheraphy wherein the aftereffect of the medication is shedding of hair. Instead of thinking my impending death, i continued my studies. As my outer shell gradually change, the person who used to admire me had lost his affection. In despair, I always come in school in braids to hide the balding part, But there was one person who become my no 1 fan no matter how i unattractive I was. We go to the library together and while we research, the electric fan in front of us blows my braid and would hit his face countless times an i will never forget the way he expressed his irritation. Then after, i had to transfer in to another school then we lost our communication. 5 years after, this time we are already in college, and my painful medications were over and have surmounted cancer, have grown longer hair and developed into a stronger person. I met him once again. We were accidentally in a same bus. There were 5 boys who just came in and the 4 who happened to be his friends were seated in front. Since there was no vacant seats that last guy opted to sit at the back where i parked myself. He did not know it was me. He almost did not recognize me with my long hair down and not in braids this time when i tapped his shoulder. I can't remember what happened next all I remember how wonderfully good it felt to be with him once again and seeing me as a total different person. The man who loved me and set eyes on beauty in all my imperfections. Then we shared the joys of our first visit in star city (because I had to wait for my operation to be healed so it took time) This time, he would love to feel my hair as it hits his face in the "the viking-away ride."  i can no longer see his irritated face  but the smile of  love to embrace.  the one i hold dearly all these years. =)

longing

sitting alone in this widely room

staring at the blank wall

searching every corner 

will i ever see you?

no trace, no signs 

no spark of hope to get you by my side

until i realized you have wandered so far

i miss you, i really do

so please find your way back, to where i first saw you

i hope you will, coz i know i'm not totally forgotten

i know in your heart, there I stay.

missing you

I miss you

When we woke up late on a weekend

Our classic pancake for breakfast

You brewed your coffee and i made my own milk

You turn on the tv while i fix our bed

You’re a lazy ass when you let me run the house chores

Cleaning, wiping, washing our soiled clothes

 I went all the way to the wet market

I cooked our lunch and share our fave dessert

After we had some scrumptious meal

to be continued

hurt

To my dear friend,

I saw you crying

Somebody made your heart badly broken

You have never ending tears

Flows down at the bottom of your soul

Slowly you're getting drown

Desperately begging

For the old love that inflict you the pain

You’re still kept on holding that it was just a bad dream

You had the thought that he was just tired

One of those typical days when you fight

When he said that it was over

You don’t find it right

He uttered no other reasons

He just fell out of love

Shocked, weak and helpless

You find it hard to figure out

You run away, vanish instantly

Alone in the dark, there you hide and you find no solace

Screaming and grieving

another failure in in your life

Too much hurt to handle
you don't know where to stand
you are with your most vulnerable state
how could this life give you enormous pain
i can't just watch you weeping

they squeezed you, cut your most precious heart
left you nothing but a thousand broken promises
i know how your whole world fall apart
you are totally lost in the crowd
i hope i can pull you back
and help you to get out of this melancholy
i know its not easy
i'll let you get through the process
burst your anger and desperation
healing can be done naturally
surrender the grudges to the one above
he'll give the peace you want
don't rush, be patient
soon you'll surpass the harsh
i'll be just here, will listen to your whining
your sighs will be heard, i'm all ears
i'll walk beside you till you get tired of this.