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I remember the days when it rains

Were on the couch cuddling

Curled up and hug each other

We enjoy the cold weather

Our silly laughs that lasts longer
and for plain awesomeness that we are together

I love it when you kiss me gently on my forehead
i had shiver fuzz chills

I can’t forget your smile the sweetest in my eyes

You hold me and i feel the warmth of your touch

There’s a fire burning inside of me

I know i am filled with love

I love you like rains pouring on our love nest

The romantic feeling it brings

The joy with no limits

And YOU by my side

I beg! Rainy day ....PLEASE STAY..

Don’t let this happy feeling disappear

my prayer

Thank you God for a great morning

Another gift of life

The wisdoms that kept me going

The sun that still shines through the day

All the elements that i need to keep me alive

The air that I breathe

The food at the table

And the happy atmosphere

The bliss inside of me

The feeling that i am healthy

No bad dreams

Just all happy thoughts

You gave all that I need

Even if i didn’t ask for it

You poured down the blessings on me

You rescued me when i'm in despair

With the angel you sent me i knew that i am safe from danger

You forgive me countless times when i fell short on you

I know you won’t forsake a child like me

Coz i am your greatest creation

And that is why, i am forever grateful

Sets eyes on a real beauty (written by a dear friend)

After graduating elementary, I transferred in another school and i had so many friends because i was "new face" in the campus. A lot were sending me letters and wanted to disclose themselves. One day i was hospitalized  and had an operation. At the age of 13, I had to go through six sessions of chemotheraphy wherein the aftereffect of the medication is shedding of hair. Instead of thinking my impending death, i continued my studies. As my outer shell gradually change, the person who used to admire me had lost his affection. In despair, I always come in school in braids to hide the balding part, But there was one person who become my no 1 fan no matter how i unattractive I was. We go to the library together and while we research, the electric fan in front of us blows my braid and would hit his face countless times an i will never forget the way he expressed his irritation. Then after, i had to transfer in to another school then we lost our communication. 5 years after, this time we are already in college, and my painful medications were over and have surmounted cancer, have grown longer hair and developed into a stronger person. I met him once again. We were accidentally in a same bus. There were 5 boys who just came in and the 4 who happened to be his friends were seated in front. Since there was no vacant seats that last guy opted to sit at the back where i parked myself. He did not know it was me. He almost did not recognize me with my long hair down and not in braids this time when i tapped his shoulder. I can't remember what happened next all I remember how wonderfully good it felt to be with him once again and seeing me as a total different person. The man who loved me and set eyes on beauty in all my imperfections. Then we shared the joys of our first visit in star city (because I had to wait for my operation to be healed so it took time) This time, he would love to feel my hair as it hits his face in the "the viking-away ride."  i can no longer see his irritated face  but the smile of  love to embrace.  the one i hold dearly all these years. =)

longing

sitting alone in this widely room

staring at the blank wall

searching every corner 

will i ever see you?

no trace, no signs 

no spark of hope to get you by my side

until i realized you have wandered so far

i miss you, i really do

so please find your way back, to where i first saw you

i hope you will, coz i know i'm not totally forgotten

i know in your heart, there I stay.

missing you

I miss you

When we woke up late on a weekend

Our classic pancake for breakfast

You brewed your coffee and i made my own milk

You turn on the tv while i fix our bed

You’re a lazy ass when you let me run the house chores

Cleaning, wiping, washing our soiled clothes

 I went all the way to the wet market

I cooked our lunch and share our fave dessert

After we had some scrumptious meal

to be continued

hurt

To my dear friend,

I saw you crying

Somebody made your heart badly broken

You have never ending tears

Flows down at the bottom of your soul

Slowly you're getting drown

Desperately begging

For the old love that inflict you the pain

You’re still kept on holding that it was just a bad dream

You had the thought that he was just tired

One of those typical days when you fight

When he said that it was over

You don’t find it right

He uttered no other reasons

He just fell out of love

Shocked, weak and helpless

You find it hard to figure out

You run away, vanish instantly

Alone in the dark, there you hide and you find no solace

Screaming and grieving

another failure in in your life

Too much hurt to handle
you don't know where to stand
you are with your most vulnerable state
how could this life give you enormous pain
i can't just watch you weeping

they squeezed you, cut your most precious heart
left you nothing but a thousand broken promises
i know how your whole world fall apart
you are totally lost in the crowd
i hope i can pull you back
and help you to get out of this melancholy
i know its not easy
i'll let you get through the process
burst your anger and desperation
healing can be done naturally
surrender the grudges to the one above
he'll give the peace you want
don't rush, be patient
soon you'll surpass the harsh
i'll be just here, will listen to your whining
your sighs will be heard, i'm all ears
i'll walk beside you till you get tired of this.